Can I do this?

Be so... unorthodox?

Yes, yes and yes.  But unusual, even I must admit.  These things that I want in my life.  Is it just as easy as that?  ask?  be perfect?  be accepted?

Such an incredible, amazing thing this is.  Full of trust and love.  Respect, understanding.  How did I get so lucky?  When did I become understood in such an amazing way?  I cannot describe the feeling.  Freedom to be who I am, without question.

People know all about me and love me anyway?
hallelujah.
for reals though.
for real.

lower our hands...

I'm AWAKE.

after a week straight of 3 hours/night snooze I should be dead to the world but...

I cannot sleep.  I have too much in my mind.  Too many ideas/memories/plans/hopes/fears/expectations, etc...

I want so much.  I feel I deserve these things because I was clean in my asking.  And good.  I try to be a good person.

Time ain't gonna fix it honey, time don't give a shit...

go straight ahead.  do it.
it's gonna split

I'm dirty, gritty and clean and organized all together.  How does this happen?  why?

FUCK IT

won't hold you
won't hold you

aw honey, aw honey

go ahead